Sept 26

Tomorrow will be one month since my last velcade shot.  And I feel GREAT!!

I actually feel like my old self again and am enjoying it. I even walked the 1/3 mile trail at the park Monday! Twice!

The neuropathy in my feet is still there, but thankfully it isn't causing me anymore excruciating pain. They just feel weird. If one of my flats slips off, I can't just slip it back on because i can't feel my feet. I have to actually reach down and put it back on with my hands. They tingle, they feel cold, like they're frostbitten. I put different creams on them, I don't think it helps much (lavender, tiger balm, etc), but I sure do have soft feet!

This is my week off of the revlimid, too.  :)

Vanderbilt called to give me my appointment for the tests to make sure I am a good SCT candidate. I go October 7 & 8th.  Jillian's gonna go with me. So now I have to find a hotel for us on  that Monday. I'll have to have blood work, echo, ekg, skeletal survey, and I forgot if there is any thing else. I'll have to do a 24fr urine test at home the day before and bring that in.

I'm not scared. Maybe I'm too stupid to be scared, I don't know. All I know is that I take comfort in the fact that my life or death is in the hands of Jesus Christ. This is no accident to Him and I must proceed with the thought that the people He has placed in my path and there for a purpose. So I will walk through all the doors, not forcing any open, til He closes them.

I have a funny feeling, though that healing isn't what He has in store for me.

He has used this illness to make me heavenly minded. Let's face it, if you're not staring death in the face, it's easy to put off living for the Lord.  I know, I'm a master at it.