Sept 28

I still feel good, all except these feet! I was able to walk around the mall today for at least 1/2 an hr. I should have timed my walk, but I didn't. Of course, I'm not speed walking, but never the less, I am getting out and moving.

I wonder how I am gonna get any better when I can't get a decent nights sleep. I don't get any really deep sleep. I know that is the time the body repairs itself and your immune system is boosted. Well, mine sure isn't can only managed a couple hours sleep at a time.

I resisted a nap this evening because I wanted to make sure I would be tired enough to get to sleep.  Well, so much for that. Went to bed at 10:30 and here it is midnight and I'm up. 

My feet hurt like the dickens. When I softly push on the bottoms of my feet, it feels like someone shot them full of Novocaine. The tingle, they feel frostbitten, cold. I feel like I am wearing socks, even when I'm not. Sometimes I reach down to take off my socks and oops, I'm not wearing any! I can't even feel my feet when I wear shoes or walk.  So I ran some hot water, as hot as I could stand it, and soaked them in the tub for about 20 minutes. Seems to have helped a little, not enough though.  But hey, at least I'm not crying all day long. Before when I was still on the velcade, they hurt so bad I had to cry.

I am taking milk thistle, turmeric, vitamin D, vitamin B12.  I am also taking elderberry syrup & astragalus syrup that I made. Tomorrow I've got to get some capsules made! I need to make astragalus and nettle  capsules. I think I still have burdock tincture. May take that. It's already made so I may as well us it up.

Of course, the doctor doesn't want me to take any herbal supplements.; but you know me, ever the rebel! I have about 2 wks before I go for my appointment. That gives me a little time to see if I can get my white cells up on my own.

I know I wrote something about thinking the Lord was not gonna heal me. Well, I heard a sermon over the internet today and he was taking about healing. He really struck a chord with me. He talked about some people who pray to get healed, but God knows that if He healed them, they would just go back to their old ways. I think that applies to me.  The more and more the awful tastes goes away in my mouth, the more I start eating things that aren't good for me, things I haven't eaten for months due to the chemo. I wonder too, if I would stop thinking of the Lord if I were healed?  So you see, being sick isn't the worst thing that can happen to a person. 

I got a reservation at LaQuinta in Nashville for me and Jillian for the 7th.  Hopefully the hotel will be clean and nice. Website says it was just remodeled..  I sure hope so. Because if it is nice, we'll stay there for the 30 days of the SCT.  It comes out to be a pretty good deal for me.  The room is approximately $102 and of that, the insurance company will reimburse me $50!